how did i manage to make my dad angry already? this is stupid. i’ve been acting just like him and i totally realize how much of a douche he can be… meaning that i’ve probably been acting all douch-ey too. i’m sorry. why does it feel like i shouldn’t be here. i don’t think i’m a rebel. i never tried to be. never want to disobey or disappoint my parents. as much as i don’t want to grow up, i can’t avoid it. but it feels like i can’t even grow up because they talk to me like a child sometimes, still. when i’ve gotten this far on my own, mentally, and somewhat financially. i never asked them to help me with my homework. i got these grades on my own. i got into co-op on my own. and yes i made my own mistakes and i’m not asking them to cover for me. obviously i still need them. for a place to sleep, a place to eat, a place to shower. i need to appreciate what they’ve done for me so far. and believe me, i want to do that more. i want them to know that i love them and that i do appreciate it. but let me grow up, go places, get somewhere in life that i want to be so that i can be successful and repay you- financially. and of course with gratitude. i’m sorry. /end rant!